It's not real unless it's blogged...

Whether it resonated or not through my blog posts, I was really trying to work on my marriage these many months. No matter what I did, it was never enough though. I was really trying to figure it all out. Did I read all the signals wrong? Who knows? But I have been played the fool for so long now. Turns out that he is in love with his friend from high school. So, now that it's here, I cannot continue to lie to myself. If everyone else knows, I will have to be accountable and stop pretending there is something there. The lie is over. In the end, he said he only pitied me. Wish I could go hide.